Life in chapters. Life in song. Life in ups and life in downs, life in smiles and all arounds. Hearts in tears and then overflowing with joy. Goodbyes, hellos and sometimes many unknowns...
Paths might change when you aren't paying attention and swoop you in another direction. Sometimes, paths stay the same for a long time. Sometimes you yearn for change, sometimes you don't...
That's life. Twists and turns. Chapters end and chapters begin. When my mind is full and bursting and seeping thoughts from the seams - I go to the hidden heart nook...
It doesn't matter if my thoughts are merely fluttering, or if I have something actually going on. I yearn to sew - to mend, literally and figuratively...
When one of the doors to my studio is open, it hides and protects this little nook, sometimes causing me to forget it is even there.
But that's the thing about places and people that you might find comforting. The heart nook is always there, even if you temporarily forget. It waits for you with open arms...
It puts ribbons in your hair, it lines your skirt with delicate trim, it gives you little metal covers to protect your fingers.
It gifts magic wands to help you mend. Tiny wands. Some with pearls at the ends, some with an eye.
Somehow, it always lends the perfect thing...
It seems the heart nook knows just what you need, even before you do...
If you are lucky, the heart nook keeper might even make an appearance...
Warmly guiding you. Prescribing just the perfect stitching or button...
In the shuffle of human nature, accompanied by the human trait to interpret the world through our own eyes, we sometimes forget about others. We make assumptions (which can be dangerous). We can be selfish.
We don't realize, perhaps the heart nook keeper needs a hand today. A bead, an eye. I scurry to assist her. And as I do, it helps me.
I went to the nook in search of mending myself.
But let my own issues go to help her, and while I wasn't looking they fluttered away, and I felt so much better...
Like I said, twists and turns and roundabouts. Circling the carousel and over the ferris wheel. Chapters end and chapters begin. And sometimes, if we just let go, who knows what candyland awaits us at the next bend in the road...
My little universe has been filled with all sorts of curious twist and turns as of late. Chapters left unwritten have been written and closed in the matter of days.
I packed my car full last night, with the last of my old job. My favorite song unexpectedly played on my radio in an acoustic version that I have loved. It comforted me.
I shed a tear for those I will miss in that family like office. And for an era in my life gone, but filled with beautiful memories.
That old path is what made this world of art full time possible for me. I started to close that chapter of my old career almost 2 years ago, but never fully did. It came time to officially do so this week. So, that chapter ends with a smile, as I close the book I clasp it to my chest, then lovingly put it on my shelf...
I feel a calm, knowing I have this place, where you meet me from time to time, and oh, how I appreciate you...
And now, on to totally full time art adventures!!!
♥, V
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Your studio space is so, SO beautiful, and Thank You little Miss Mouseling Heart-Nook helper!! :) Just what I needed!! How ever did she know!?? :)
Hoooray for new chapters and being a full time artiste!! :)
Posted by: Marjorie | July 08, 2009 at 12:02 PM
Looking back to the past makes it hard to move on to your future self, no? I think that you are on to writing a fabulous new story of your present life...and the magical world you inhabit. I see you as a fairy princess of sorts...blessing us with your mystical way of being and enthralling us with your world. Endings are hard but there are new doors to open! And as I have said (and you may quote me!), "The doors of opportunity are opening around us all the time. We have to have the vision to see what is on the other side and the courage to walk through them." If you do, you will be surprised at the new doors that will be made evident to you! Thanks for sharing this bittersweet post my dear girl. Now step boldly in the direction of your destiny.
Enjoy the day!
xox
Erin
Posted by: Erin Prais-Hintz | July 08, 2009 at 12:19 PM
Beginnings are always a little sad and glad at the same time. lol You have a beautiful space!
Posted by: Maggi | July 08, 2009 at 12:21 PM
just sooo beautiful...almost made me cry..just because i´m in an almost equal situation right now and you summed up whats going on in my head for days already... so thank you :)
*kisses*
Posted by: Kirsten | July 08, 2009 at 12:39 PM
wait wait wait -- what did I miss? I am so lost, and really sad and a little frightened.
Posted by: Lori Anderson | July 08, 2009 at 12:46 PM
This just about made me cry.
I've been in hiding for a few days after my exhibition during the weekend, meeting lots of people, remembering things from the past. Alone time much needed. And I'm thinking how far I've come already but when everything IS coming true it's so fragile and clear. When you choose not to close yourself in anymore and play a social game you never agreed with anyway.
Posted by: Maria-Thérèse | July 08, 2009 at 12:46 PM
Oh Vanessa, CONGRATULATIONS!!! Little one so wise, you already know this, keep moving forward. You will be many things in your life before you leave this little blue planet. How exciting for you. Keep building the life you want. This quote is about aging, but it is also about life...always being all the things you were..."The great thing about getting older is that you don't lose all the other ages you've been." Madeleine L'Engle **blows magical kisses filled with rainbow and unicorns and parades and a magic ring** All my love, Deborah
Posted by: deborah | July 08, 2009 at 12:47 PM
..well...and maybe, you know, the heart (nook) is where you weave the common threads of your life together, past and present, to become the beautiful fanciful Veevala we all love adore and appreciate; who is who she is because of the patchwork of experiences she's made something out of-a few whimsical notions here, some magic silk there and-- what a rich tapestry!
And..isnt it ironic? The keeper of your heart (nook) now has both eyes with which to see?
{{{sigh}}}
i just love life, with all its melancholy sweetness and crazy joy and beautiful souls and neverending journies. and twists and turns.....
xoxoxoxoxox
Posted by: Rhonda Roo | July 08, 2009 at 12:51 PM
I am always amazed at how closely our paths resemble each others'! I am packing to move today and it is always with mixed feelings. I enjoy packing my things but I get tired and then feel moody! One thing is always true... things will always change. And I agree...it's so nice to come to our blogs and share our experiences with each other!
Posted by: Lavender Dreams | July 08, 2009 at 12:51 PM
V~
Letting go is always difficult but you have so many fans and oh so much talent. Brighter days are ahead for you...I just know.....
Hugs and love your way!!
Your the bestest!!!
Kylee
p.s. I am addicted to Phoenix....seriously...lol I'm still dancing on rooftops....in my head.....
Posted by: Kylee Ward | July 08, 2009 at 12:51 PM
what a beautiful post :) congratulations on the new path!
Posted by: Poke Salad Annie | July 08, 2009 at 01:04 PM
I don't know what it going on exactly, but I do know you will shine in whatever new adventure awaits you! All the best!
Posted by: Pamela | July 08, 2009 at 01:04 PM
Congratulations, V. It is amazing that your favorite song came on the radio as you left. A sure sign. You have worked very hard to get to this point. And we appreciate that.
Posted by: Jamie Watson | July 08, 2009 at 01:14 PM
Oh my heart is breaking for you, it's always hard to say good-bye and close a door to something known. But the adventures that lay ahead are new doors to open.
Such a beautiful little mending spot and the pictures too yummy for words!!!! I must go find some coffee stains for my computer.
Happy thought and happy hearts are spinning in your direction!!!!
xoxo Cori
Posted by: Cori G. | July 08, 2009 at 01:52 PM
Darling Deb gave you a magic ring! I want a magic ring!!
Posted by: Cori G. | July 08, 2009 at 01:56 PM
How beautiful...to put this on a shelf, and then courage to take the next step on this Fanciful Journey of yours. I congratulate you, cheer you on, and send you warm hugs and kisses (and chocolate chip cookies if need be...because that sounds so good, doesn't it?) You just never know where the first step down a path will lead do you?
Posted by: sadira | July 08, 2009 at 02:10 PM
beautiful post and so thought provoking. Congratulations on your new journey, I'm certain you'll be successful at whatever you do.
Posted by: Dee | July 08, 2009 at 02:28 PM
Well done and good for you! Change is good most of the time and every so often it insists upon being done. Full time art! So glad you are achieving your dreams!
Sarah x
Posted by: Sarah | July 08, 2009 at 02:47 PM
i love it when songs come on the radio that have a some sort of significance, i sometimes think that our 'angels' put them on for us...
i am intrigued to know what your old 'job' was? i musnt have been following you long enough (or paying the right sort of attention:) please do tell..
heres to the future *raises glass*
%*_*%rosey
Posted by: icantsew | July 08, 2009 at 02:47 PM
Oh this post was just what I needed. I've been thinking about old and new chapters too. But I'm happy that your new chapter is full of hope and hopefully much excitement and success!
Posted by: devil mood | July 08, 2009 at 02:52 PM
Oh my, talk about timing and serendipity (related to my email tonight). I know it's hard closing an important chapter, but you're right - so many new opportunities beckon. And I'm sure you will be very successful at anything you attempt. Your life is filled with art and to make a full-time career out of creating more art seems like a precious gift! I'll be watching with interest (and cheering you along) as you blaze new trails. xoxox
Posted by: Paris Parfait | July 08, 2009 at 03:08 PM
As one door closes ...a new one opens.... change is always good ... it keeps things fresh and new and exciting... its hard... I for one have trouble with change but its necessary for one to move on ... to write a new chapter in our book of life...
Even though it was a difficult week for you ...your days will be filled with art... your love...your passion.... your new found independence... It couldnt get any better than that
Will be waiting with baited breath to see what fabulous new creations you have in store for us
LOTS OF HUGS
JO
Posted by: JO | July 08, 2009 at 04:58 PM
your new "full time artful" life awaits.....what a journey it will be....I am so happy that you share it with all of us...it's what you were born to do (I just know these things). Enjoy the ride!
Posted by: Tracie Hanson | July 08, 2009 at 05:25 PM
Congratulations on your new life! I wish I had the courage that you have.
Posted by: Pixie | July 08, 2009 at 06:08 PM
Dearest Dovie,
You did it! I am So proud of you! You are such a great lady. Now, you can even be more of who you are for us all!
This part you wrote especially spoke to me and today, so thank you:
In the shuffle of human nature, accompanied by the human trait to interpret the world through our own eyes, we sometimes forget about others. We make assumptions (which can be dangerous). We can be selfish.
(this is true) and the sentiment it accurate for all who live!
Happy New beginning to you my friend,
Can not wait to see what will come next!
Love,
Constance
Posted by: rochambeau | July 08, 2009 at 06:58 PM
Your studio is simply divine.
Posted by: Hope @ The Queen Of Re | July 08, 2009 at 07:12 PM
Best Wishes---
You will thrive in what ever new adventures you seek out!!
Posted by: Cinnibonbon | July 08, 2009 at 09:57 PM
Cheers to you for going on full time art adventures. We need to let finish the last chapter of our old book, so we can start on Chapter 1 of next book in the series of our lives. Now it's time for this new book to begin. All kind of adventures, magic and art await.
I do like sweet mice lady.
Posted by: Shell | July 08, 2009 at 11:03 PM
It's nice to have something that comforting. Whether a rooms, a person, or a thing that will always make you feel welcome and greet you with open arms - no questions asked :-)
You've been through a sad and exciting phase in your life. Though you may think you have left something behind that has been apart of you, still the memories you've had is priceless.
And at the same time you may be excited with this new phase. Though it may just be a continuation of what you've really been doing - and loving it all the way. You are very blessed to have this opportunity to do what you really really love. :-)
Posted by: MyThoughtsMyVoice | July 09, 2009 at 02:17 AM
Somebody told me the other day that these are the times of change in the world. I have no idea if that is true globaly, but I must say that I feel a lot of twirling around me too. Things are unsure, which can be very frightening sometimes. But at the same time, I feel so much excitement and a continues bubbling of new possibilities.
It's hard to describe in a foreign language.
I just wanted to tell you how much I enjoy the time I spend on your blog. It feels like an escape to a wonderful, magical place in which everything is possible. Sometimes, as you pointed out, you just need such a moment, when your thoughts can wander away and you can become 'grounded' again. Thank you and I wish you lots of succes, luck and love on your new path!
Posted by: karin | July 09, 2009 at 05:06 AM
Congratulations!!! Change is not always easy, however, it is inevitable.
You are so mysterious...what are you changing from :?
It is lovely that you will be able to concentrate on your art...and all the things you love to do. xoxox
Posted by: Mo'a | July 09, 2009 at 06:18 AM
It's so awesome that you can look at a sometimes painful change as an always positive thing. I think that's one of the biggest goals of life! I can't wait to see what sorts of adventure you'll go on now.
Posted by: Alice | July 09, 2009 at 06:23 AM
Bestest of best wishes as you begin your full time art adventure!! Moving from one chapter to the next is always a leap of faith, but I know you'll do it gracefully and with great success!
And the people you miss can still visit you, and you them. :)
Enjoy!
~ Carolee
Posted by: carolee | July 09, 2009 at 06:28 AM
Vanessa,
When you stand in the inbetween, it's hard to keep your balance. But just like the little tight rope walker, if you hold your parasol up high enough you will keep your balance.
You can stand still long enough to catch a glimpse into your exciting future and yet embrace all the joys of the chapter you have left behind.
Karen
Posted by: karen cox | July 09, 2009 at 06:54 AM
Blessings to you on your new "adventure". I can relate to your thoughts and feelings as I have been "waiting" for whatever comes next in my life since closing the door on my sweet little garden shop that I had for 4 years. I keep pressing on with creative things in my life and know that the time will come for a new adventure. I used to like change but as I mature I am not so sure I am as adventurous as I used to be! Love your heart nook too!
Posted by: Sandra | July 09, 2009 at 07:39 AM
You have given yourself a precious gift. May all your wishes and journey's come true.
Posted by: Momentsinaneye | July 09, 2009 at 07:41 AM
Vanessa, Congats! I'm a true believer that change is good. With your talents and creativity, along with your imaginative spirit it will be GREAT!
Posted by: Penny Patten | July 09, 2009 at 07:43 AM
Vanessa, how very exciting!! To FULLY be able to close that door and enter your passion. You should feel very proud of being able to make this happen...
cheers!!
x..x
steph
Posted by: Stephanie | July 09, 2009 at 09:47 AM
I am so happy for you! It is never easy to leave paths we thought we wanted to be on, but a totally artful life will suit you and lead you to exciting new paths. Twyla
Posted by: two crazy crafters | July 09, 2009 at 12:55 PM
Well isn't this good news for ME!!! LOL
Yippeeeeee!!!!!!
Ah when one glorious chapter ends, the other adventure that has been patiently biding it's time on the carousel of life gets to rub its hands together with glee!!! Your art is beckoning! Go! Go!!!!!
xxoxooxoxox
Posted by: gillian | July 09, 2009 at 01:23 PM
Wow- i hope (well i am sure) that you will be so happy with this new chapter....
Yay for you.
Posted by: denise | July 09, 2009 at 02:59 PM
We're in sync! I just posted something yesterday about leaving my job to write full-time. It's scary, but necessary :) Kudos to you, Vanessa!
I left a blog award for you at my second blog, Beachy Keen, by the way!
www.beachykeencity.blogspot.com
Posted by: Haute Whimsy | July 09, 2009 at 03:03 PM
What a fabulous post, and I wish you the best of joys and successes in your new full time art world :D
Posted by: Meghann | July 09, 2009 at 03:12 PM
Congratulations!! My dream is a full-time creative life, but for now...still a day-job, make-time-for-art life.
I'm sooo happy for you. You're so fortunate. Enjoy yourself!
Melanie
Posted by: Melanie | July 09, 2009 at 04:40 PM
Awesome! Vanessa,
I found this wonderful thought on Forest Roger's blog. "There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening that is through you into action, and because there is only ONE YOU in ALL TIME, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium, and will be lost. The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how 'good it is', nor how it 'compares' with others expression. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly--to keep the channel OPEN." (This quote is from Martha Graham). What this says to me is to keeping creating no matter what happens and we are who we are and that is a gift in itself. Thank you again for such insight and inspiration...you don't know how much it helps a lot of us just to let go.
Cheers and happiness,
Teresa
Posted by: Teresa in California | July 09, 2009 at 05:45 PM
I am happy for you and the wonderful possibilities that lie ahead for you....no doubt it will be something extra splendiferous!!! But oh MY!!! What a true blessing for me to come your special place to visit after my being away for soo long to see that within your post is a gift just for me!! Exactly what I needed to hear and read, what I've been trying to say but the words were all choked and squeaky now for a while, the tears are flowing right now as I exclaim my thanks for what a gift you are dear dear Vanessa!!! And I don't give a wit for anyone else to read this cause I mean it all for you to say THANK YOU xxoo
Posted by: Bethany | July 09, 2009 at 06:06 PM
I said goodbye to a 23 year career 5 years ago to do my art full time and couldn't be happier. Although I do have lovely memories, they are nothing compared to the joy I get from opening the door to my studio every morning and creating in my jammies all day if I decide not to get dressed :)
Much love to you Sweet V and the lovely things to come,
LuLu~*xoxo
Posted by: LuLu | July 09, 2009 at 06:29 PM
We are packing boxes. Moving back to Tempe so that we are able to take care of business more efficiently. Another door opening...and one closing. Perhaps our next step to our end goal. I left my "job" four years ago to begin our business. It was the people in that office who offered their support and kindness on the days that I was unsure of taking the step. I miss seeing them each day...but they are still in my life and the relationship is just as rich.
Posted by: waterrose | July 09, 2009 at 07:07 PM
You are so gifted and I know you will blossom even more!!!
For all of us to watch and be dazzled by your talents!
Saying goodbye is hard.... but saying Hello to more creativity is better!!!
Hugs,
K
Posted by: kayellen | July 09, 2009 at 09:29 PM
Another lovely post, Vanessa! Your studio and hidden nook look like a magical place to heal and retreat to when needed! :)
Posted by: tattingchic | July 10, 2009 at 09:26 AM