I feel funny today. I can't describe it. Not funny haha, but funny like curious, strange and unusual. Perhaps it has to do with being in my studio for days, a little room in the world. Tucked in there, hidden away, working and dreaming, creating away...
I am not sure, but that certainly could be it.
From time to time I escape from the place where paint meets door. I run outside, water some veggies. Then come back. Put in an eye, an eyebrow, and then run up and bang on my piano.
Then I realize, wait, maybe there is something else that is missing from my drawers (jogged by our last chat). And it is, so I take every last thing out of my closet, drawers and under the bed (to no avail).
I convince myself there are creatures roaming in the night.
And, I am okay with that, as long as they don't wake me in a fright!!
I put in a few cakes and pies (in paint on canvas)...
Then I escape again, and find myself sobbing into my homemade pizza - rewatching Susan Boyle and Jamie Pugh from a couple years ago.
I get all sensitive, and in my head.
I sob as the winds whips.
Not sad sobs, but sobs of amazement.
Sobs of "Yes! magic can happen!!"
I run up and tell Mister Lovee to rewatch too - then we get caught up in other tales (he and I), and laugh and cry and laugh and cry. (we are quite a pair sniffling about as we laugh as well, sharing the same sentiments about things, mostly)
Then, back to the canvas I go...
It is often, when I am quiet in the studio - that an abundance of tales and creatures and beings find me. I tell Mister lovee about them all (some a huge part of our lives, in character and song), and he begs me to tape myself telling the tales of these creatures - and playing their tunes.
I say, okay okay, I will.
Then I run off on some other adventure.
So much going on in this crazy brain, so much to share and tell.
But how or when or why?
The other day, deep in sleep, I dreamt I was dying - and I realized, I'd take all my ideas and faces and stories with me. I was worried, Mister didn't know where the big secret book of characters was (and he is not the best at finding things), and so many other things to get down. But then, really, does it matter? As long as they keep me company?
Either way, I woke up - 4 a.m. and decided to stay.
Bizarre deep crazy dreams I have.
My sleeping life is so active, I think I need a break ;)
Oh and - 6 years of a rock mountain of paint has formed on my paint board. Time for a new one, me thinks...
As day turns to afternoon, then to night, and over and over in this quick cycle that seems to be my days - I run out to the cottage taking hot chocolate, homemade pizza, water and any other treats I can conjure up to my beloved....
As he works to wrap up the inside of the very wee cottage...
I peek out the window - trying to time dinner perfectly for everyone in my little family.
Matty and Miles, and Lovee too.
These days, it's all about the broccoli.
And boy is it goooooooooood!
I realize my time management stinks.
But it's pointless, I can't be controlled.
I can't sit in a little painting room, in a tiny space in the universe, and work and sit still, and enforce my own rules all day. (although I do try)
I have to break free and run and lose track, from time to time.
But when I come back I have a resurgence of paintbrush - and the eyelashes it is.
Hooray for eyelashes I say.
So, that's where I am, in my head -
Upside down and inside out, and now, the hunt for my jelly belly brooch ensues.
(actually, I think I will give up, and let it find me someday, if I can bear to wait)
Seriously - I think the elves gave me back the coral rose, and took the bee.
I know, you think there is no way.
That I must have misplaced it on a whim.
Tish Tosh I say.
It is not in its glass case, locked away.
So, just this once - I am certain it is elfin play.
I know it.
So, on another note....
What's for dinner at your house?
I love the rhythm of what folks do in their homes, don't you?
Dinner prep and chats and daily lives.
That's my favorite sort of thing.
So, what's for din?
I am not sure here yet......
But, I best get!
ps: A few months ago I was asked to be a part of Cut out and Keep's Crafty Superstars. It sounded like a blast, so I said yes of course, and thank you. So exciting to see it just go up, here is a link where you can peek ♥