I had so many things I wanted to say today...
Like, how my heart almost burst (still bursting) when I saw so many familiar friends in the last post. I don't know what I had thought? In some way I thought that everyone had drifted off into the ethernet and turned into glitter.
That, I had bored my friends into oblivion.
To know you are there peeking in makes all the difference, it really does. Not to sound silly or melodramatic, but seriously, thank you for that.
I got up this morning, paint and sparkles still in my hair from late night painting, and did all my chores.
Whined a little in my mind about wanting a day off - about the long hot summer. Felt sorta wilty from trying to recover from a busy week in Mister Lovee's world, which made both worlds insane.
Got my lawn mower going, love that thing.
Mowed weeds.
Took a shower.
Then, I sat down at my computer.
Quickly, everything seemed frivolous after reading about the Colorado shootings.
It's in these moments, when I feel sick in my belly imagining the chaos of lives lost, and lives turned upside down - where I stop. Think. Breathe. Feel, imagine. Grieve for people I don't even know.
And, somehow...
Everything else I thought I wanted to say and share, just simply doesn't matter.
I feel silent.
Sad for others.
Prayerful.
Quiet.
Those moments in life, that shake you.
That jolt you.
That turn your world inside out.
Those are such intense inexplicable times, aren't they?
And so today, all I can do is think about others, and hope for them...
This happened the other day, as I looked up at the sky after the rains...
Just hopes and prayers and thoughts for others, for today...
That is how it feels in my heart.
Love, Vanessa
♥
ps: Giveaway results etc, will be in the next post.
