Sometimes I want to make myself teeny tiny. Throw on a lovely gnome hat and run away with my deer friends...
To a place where vintage cardboard pink houses line the checkered streets... And, sparkles fall from the sky... Really, is that too much to ask? I can see a deer friend trotting in now...
It could be quite dreamy right? Maybe just a few days a year? I know, you think I have fallen off Mr. Lovee's hippie chair right? I want to live in a place where there is no real world stuff. But, I guess that just does not exist does it? Even in Animal Farm... Either way, my dear friend and I escaped into another world yesterday...
We made another world come alive...
A world where real toy shops, with wooden jointed puppets & hand sewn garments really do exist (deep in the depths of antique stores that is...). And after shopping, girls giggled over hummus, falafel and gyros... A world where noone cares what we smelled like when we left Sinbad's Palace... A place where we bought whatever we wanted. Girly and lovely things, abound...
Wonderful December magazine issues and fabric shopping!!! Victoria Magazine is back! Look at Tasha Tudor's gown collection, swoon, swoon swoon! And Mary Engelbreit is wonderful too!!! Look at that mantel vignette!!
What we were hiding from, in our invented world, is the fact that life has kicked my friend's tushie rather hard lately. She was extra stylish (her words) in her weird glasses the eye doctor put on her dialated eyes (an outing before the shopping and laughing). Not to mention the saddest part. My dear friend just lost her youngest son to a trecherous battle with cancer... She has lupus, and she is having eye surgery that will keep her upside down for 22 hours a day for 10 days (starting December 13th). She is single and lives alone, that doesn't make things easier... (did I mention she walked with a cane through our shopping excursions because she broke her toe two nights ago... (and she laughs about it!)
But, in light of all of this, she was laughing, giggling mad, and trying to keep tea from pouring through her nostrils. She is a strong, sensitive, wonderful woman. A potter, a painter, an archeologist, a business woman, a friend, a mother. Somehow through rasing three sons alone and losing one, she has managed to hold it together. She talks about her life with a mad innocence you want to bottle. She is full of love for life, for nature! She grasps new things with an open mind, eager to learn... She amazes me.
She makes me realize that everything is always going to be okay. You have to hold on to memories, to the future, to today, and to faith. Don't get me wrong, her pain for the loss of her son is palpable. But we talk about him and we cry and laugh, and then cry and laugh some more...
Mr. Lovee had a horrible car accident a couple years ago. I remember the fear I felt, and the awful times we faced during his recovery. I remember wishing that we could have our lives back. I would pray hard, for just one day in the life of how things used to be... And, of course, over time, Mr. Lovee was 99% back to normal. Boy, do we embrace life...
We don't know what tomorrow will bring... So we have to laugh and love all we can. I know there are so many things I should do. I don't see my family as much as I should. I don't see my darling grandparents as much as I should.
But I think of them all of the time. I talk to my mom a bizillion times a day... Although, seeing things through my friend Carolyn's eyes... Through the eyes of such profound loss, really puts things into perspective... Like, why do I worry and freak out about the things that I do? Does it really matter? What matters is the love for the people we have in our lives & the support we give and receive. But how do we remember that when silly life things derail us?
All that comes to mind right now is, Dance in the forest of your imagination... Live and love all you can...
Below is another song composed (as well as all instruments performed) by my amazing brother, Adam, to accompany one of my art pieces. Memory of the dance in the forest... I thought it was appropriate to share at this time...(to listen to all collaborations to date, visit my website VanessaValencia.Com, under Musique)
Hugs a bunch. See you soon!