Our beloved furry girl has left us...
At home, on the little lawn, under a beautiful blue sky ~ with Mommy and Daddy curled around her, holding her, whispering to her how much we love her ~ she closed her eyes and found peace...
It is so incredibly difficult for me to type these words...
Baby stayed until our Mad Tea Party, where we took pictures and had fun. She wanted to be here, with us, every moment, but her body couldn't fight any longer. The details are just too heartbreaking to share.
There are no words to describe our love for her. The beauty of her soul, and how she led us by her paw, to a place deep inside of ourselves...
Baby opened our hearts to a depth of love and to a connection, that only a furry loved one can take you to - if you are willing to let yourself fall...
To fall into deep love, to fall into selfless caring, to fall into silent understanding.
I never knew of that place, until Baby took me there.
She opened my eyes to furry creatures, to loving them and seeing them, in a way that I couldn't see until she showed me.
We met Baby at a yard sale almost 10 years ago, and I remember the day perfectly.
"I love your dog" I said to the woman having the sale.
"She isn't my dog, we just feed her," said the woman.
Then the woman said, you can have her if you want.
I asked what her name was.
"Baby," responded the woman...
So, I worked on Mister Lovee for 2 weeks (he says it was less), until he said yes. We were not pet people then, we didn't know what we were doing. We brought Baby home (she was about 1 year old), and she was wild, destroying so many things and digging up so much industrial irrigation, that we had to take her back. We were sad, but at the time, we felt we had no other choice. (something that we would never do today, as evolved furry creature lovers)
2 months later, after Mister Lovee and I had gone out to dinner and to a movie, we returned home to find Baby sitting in front of our gate. She had found us.
She stayed.
And, she never destroyed a thing again.
Mister Lovee says that Baby chose us to be her family, and she chose this place to be her home.
She protected me, she guarded our home, she was kind, she was gentle.
She was an angel.
I will miss everything about her.
It was a terribly difficult weekend for us, Matty whimpered and sighed heavily, abandoning his rambunctious self for several days. All we could get ourselves to do really was cry and sleep, and talk about how much we love Baby...
She was a integral part of our little family, and as far as we are concerned, will always be...
All of our tears and pain, are only because we loved her so much. And every tear we shed, is worth having known her...
Mister Lovee, Baby and me - what a beautiful life we enjoyed together...
Of course, the journey of our little lives without Baby continues, and we have precious Matty to love. All three of our lives will forever be touched and enhanced by the gift of love we were given, through knowing Baby.
Baby had a beautiful funeral, and is buried to the right of the sanctuary, under a billowing mesquite tree, not far from the great big apricot tree.
The evening she passed away, the sky gifted such beauty...
An incredible sight really...
In her last 6 months, she taught her little brother Matty, so many lessons. She would stop him with her paw, from leaving the yard. She would block him from nipping our friends. She taught him the ins and outs of this property, and how to catch lizards.
There are such amazing endless tales.
We are all healing our hearts, and have started the healing by creating a beautiful garden around her grave. Mister put in irrigation and we planted several plants.
And Matty, is guarding sister's resting place...
Every evening as the sun sets, the light that shines through the tree above her grave, fills me with so much emotion...
Baby...
We will always love you.
And, somewhere in time, I know, we'll meet again...
But for now, we hold you in our hearts, with glowing ardent love.
And, we pray, that you are at a perpetual pup party in the heavens...
